Friday, November 5, 2010

Today my baby boy would have been 12

when we lost our baby on november 5, 1998, twelve years ago someone today. While I was in the hospital a friend visited and handed me a card and said but do not read it until you get home. That night as I set in the hospital room I read it. Honestly, I only read half of it because it was too hard. I am so glad I read it, it brought me so much comfort for the next day when I would have to deliver my stillborn son. I do not think I will ever forget about this precious baby boy and I will always take the time to look at his picture that I can not share with anyone else. Anyone else would see a baby that had passed away at least 2 weeks prior to birth. I see a baby with fingers and toes and knees and shoulders and a head and face. I love looking at it. I love imagining what it would be like to have a 12 year old boy running around with my 14 year old. The scripture on the front is Job 1:21 and inside
it says:
" I was thinking abut what's ahead for the baby. Can you imagine-it will be
taking its first steps on the streets of Heaven! Hannah was a mother who
certainly knows how special a little baby is. Perhaps she'll be the one who
will let it hold her finger as it takes those first staggering steps; and
maybe she will be the one to coax it into taking it first steps alone!
Perhaps Dorcas will see to it that its hems get let out, and that the
buttons are sewn on that growing child. And Joshua! Just think what it would
be like for a child to climb into his lap and hear-first hand- about the
battle of jericho!..
Maybe Petrer will take it fishing someday! It will never fall out of tree or
breaks it's leg, for there is no pain or tears there! It won;t be afraid of
the dark for there is no darkness there. The King of Kings, the Lord of
Lords, he is the very one who said, "let the little children come to me." I
expect there will be many a time when he himself will take that baby in his
lap and let it know a love that makes all other loves seem puny by contrast.
I wouldn't be surprised if the Heavenly Father keeps a few lollipops handy
for just such occasions....
And one day, you will be greeted with a " Hi Dad and Mom! I've got some of
the neatest things to show you; and some really fantastic people i can't
wait for you to meet.


Kel said...

I don't know what to say except I am heartbroken for you and your family. I lost two babies to miscarriages and the heartache is still with me. I can't imagine what emotional roller coaster you must have faced. Your continued healing will be in my prayers.

Milena Barrett said...

Such a beautiful letter your friend gave you. Thank you for sharing. God Bless.

Julie The Army Wife said...

I am so sorry you lost your little boy :( This post is really beautiful too. Especially the last part. Your little boy will be meeting you when you go to heaven. What a sweet thing to think about. *hugs*

Mom2five said...

Sending hugs you way today. This post is beautiful and one day you will meet that little boy and I imagine he will say, "Well home Mommy,I've been waiting so long for you". ((hugs))

S.I.F. said...

Lots of love to you and your baby in heaven lady!

Little Momma said...

((Hugs)) My angel would be 10 now.

Jessicacrow said...

So heartbroken for you...sending you hugs.
What a sweet, touching post..thank you for sharing.

Candy said...

What a sweet friend. So glad you have it to look back on. Thinking of you.

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